My last semester of college snuck up on me yesterday. I was waitressing all the time and suddenly I'm sitting in lecture. Everyone suddenly looks so young on campus and I don't feel like I belong at school anymore. I'm eager to escape into the real world but it's intimidating. I'm the only Arts & Sciences student in my advertising management class ( Read more... )

Things are hectic right now and it's not just me. Everyone is so busy and so stressed with finals but I feel like there's a lot of other stuff going on too. For me, I'm stressing about my summer plans. I applied to a bunch of internships but I haven't heard back from any. I really wanted a paid marketing one but since I'm a psych major, I don't ( Read more... )

All I can do is have hope for my future. I'm trying to be better at school especially since I'm thinking about graduating a semester early. I feel like I'm so close now. I don't think I'm going to do the business minor anymore because I'd probably have to retake calculus and I'd either have to do a summer class or graduate on time. This whole ( Read more... )

Last week, I went to the campus computer store and bought this laptop. I'm in love with it. We have a new suitemate. She's from UVM but she's just doing the spring in the city program. I don't know her very well yet but she wears a pink coat and goes to yoga. I've been listening to a lot of Owen Pallett lately. I'm in love with this song called, " ( Read more... )

nicco and i aren't seeing each other anymore. an indefinite break.

All of the sudden Nicco and I are getting along. We were supposed to go on a date but instead had an epic 5 hour fight that made me feel better until we fought again a few hours later. By fight, I mean the kind with tears, screaming and literally shaking the other person. Alexei moved out of his room so we redid it and I've been spending most ( Read more... )

So I've decided not to go to Florence. My only regret is that I told some people I work with that I was going. It was my decision but I think Nicco's okay with it. I'm so fucking sick of worrying about money and with the exchange rate it would have been a struggle. I'm relieved. I'm going to try to switch into Nathalie's room next semester and plan ( Read more... )

i lost my waitressing job.
i got another babysitting job.
i don't think my dad is going to let me study in florence.
nicco and i still fight.
a lot.
it's killing me.
i go bar hopping do girly college stuff now.
but i can't afford it.
i rarely talk to anyone from home.
except riley who now lives in harlem.
my need for money consumes me.

the diner has taken over my life ( Read more... )

Today Nicco ended his 2.5 week visit to New York. I missed him so much while he was on the road trip and then I got so used to him being here. I felt like he'd never leave. So now I'm back to my New York solitude. My first hostessing job didn't work out but I was just offered one today where they will eventually train me to waitress. Now I'm in ( Read more... )