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Too much coffee rant, dull stuff, srsly
I'm severely caffeinated so what the hell, I'll write in here before I crash ( Read more... ) -
I'm moving up to Portland tomorrow!
I'm so outta here! I wasn't sure it'd ever come to this, that I'd ever really do it, but here I go. I have a 19 hour train ride ahead of me. I have to take the train to take my stuff up with me, it's way cheaper than a plane. Thankfully, Z and Grace came and got half my stuff already. I got rid of a lot but there's still a lot to take. I'll miss ( Read more... ) -
I'm sick:(
so sick, coughing and chest hurting and head full of snot, sick. But at least I'm not in love anymore. Yeah, I'm thinking I'm finally over all that. Now I can focus on finding a place to move to. -
I haven't been writing in my paper journal either
I'm going back to school. Just to community college, not back to UCSC. I'm not ready for grad school and Santa Cruz doesn't take people wanting a 2nd B.A. I may go to SF or SJ State eventually ( Read more... ) -
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I had coffee. I'm spazzing out. I wanna go to the beach and be knocked down by waves. Over and over again. Its therapeutic ( Read more... ) -
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I can't control my face lately. Its really bothering me! I keep leaving my mouth open and I was told it makes me look "kinda slow". Isn't that fucking great??? I have enough trouble with being socially awkward for fuck's sake. It could be from the meds or my front teeth being changed, they're bigger. Maybe I am slow now, it could be that. Pray for ( Read more... ) -
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I have nothing much to say. I'm feeling bad when I'm awake but ok while I sleep. So I'd rather be sleeping. I'm bored, restless, but I don't want to do anything at all. I wish I could motivate myself. I don't even want to write this post >_< Someone save me from myself! Come pick me up and play with me -
Happy return
I just have to post before the feeling fades; I actually feel HAPPY. It's a strange and unusual feeling for me. I've returned from Portland, I'm really glad I went even though I came back early. It was great to spend time with Adah. Unfortunately, she didn't have a lot of free time so I had to be alone and I'm terrible at dealing with much of that ( Read more... ) -
I dunno if I can do this for 2 weeks
It's my first day alone and I finally made it to a cafe. (I was nervous to leave the house.) Its a nice place, relatively quiet and air conditioned. Its pretty hot up here. It figures that there's a heat wave or something while I'm here, that seems to happen every time I travel, regardless of where to ( Read more... ) -
I guess I should post something. It'll be short though.
I've been waking up with anxiety lately. It's pretty awful. I'm trying to take less meds but its not really working out as planned. I've decided to quit getting drunk (which is different from quitting drinking altogether). I've been having fun, but alcohol is messing with my mood too much ( Read more... )