Have you ever wondered how dreams sometimes influence alot of day to day descisions that we make. Or even how you see something in a dream and then when it happens in your consious you are like woah deja vu. Some people have talents with dreams. Preminitions (Sp?), or people can go into another's dreams. Basically a dreamwalker, which is not ( Read more... )

Right now I dont know what to do. There are so many things that are wrong that I am trying to work threw and I feel like I will never get threw all of it. I am sinking farther and farther into my own depression and I am trying to break it. I am trying so hard and yet I am failing. My sleeping pattern has changed again, I use to sleep real well, ( Read more... )

So again here I sit completely bummed out at this moment. McDondalds was suppose to call me back last Wed to set up an interview but I never heard anything back from them. That sorta made me angry, I know they are hiring and the swing manager looked at my resume and was like hold on a second. She had run into the back to see if the manager wanted ( Read more... )

Hmmm this is gonna be a long day. In a little bit I have to shower and then walk towards the mall where there is a job opening at this local jean store. Nothing that I can fit into but you know at least it would be a job right? Hah sorta funny, I am gonna apply at the other Tim Hortons in town. I dont wanna but I gotta do what I gotta do to get a ( Read more... )

To many long days have been spent waiting, on what though? For people who where supposidly friends saying they would call. For the people that have made promises to keep in touch when they never do. So what am I waiting for exactly? That I still do not know, I am still trying to figure out what is going on in my life. I thought I had it all sorted ( Read more... )

I called Angie a few minutes ago, and she was crying. She would not even talk to me, kept saying everything was fine and then blew me off. I know I am in love with her, and I know I want to be with her. She knows when I say those words that I mean it, that I am not doing anything to jepordize our relationship. She asked me to call her back later, ( Read more... )

Well I hope tonight goes as well I as hope. I left a note for mom basically saying we both need to sit down. No yelling no attacking one another verbally and just talk like two adults. I had asked her to give me a response to the letter and there was nothing this morning when I woke up. I know I felt my heart sink, as well as my stomach. I have a ( Read more... )

Today has been great fun... sorta at least. Last night hurt alot speaking with Angie, but we resolved alot of things again that we needed too. I found out finally what was wrong and had not even really known I did it. I broke her trust in an instant and didnt realize it till I got home. I am glad she told me again and that we spoke of it. Then ( Read more... )

This has been such a weird weekend. I met 3 new people. Greg, Sam and Jen. They are great, it was a good weekend other then some of the problems that seemed to happen all at once. I mean I felt like I was playing counsiller all night to my cousin mike. He has a bunch of different things going on and well he flipped out basically and I had to calm ( Read more... )

I was sitting here reading Chicken Soup For the Teenage Soul. I know it sounds sorta childish and such but it is rather a good book to read especially since there are alot of things happening in my life at the moment. It puts things in prospective and makes everything sorta stand out. The good and the bad and all that is in between, there is so ( Read more... )