so the last few months have been great. Justin and I are getting closer and I don't know what is going on but I just can't stop kissing him. We kiss constantly. People at parties have started to comment because we will be social and then out of no where just start kissing and the rest of the world melts away. Its as if we're in our own little world ( Read more... )

So in my Feng Shui thing I also decided to go out and buy some crystals. I was ADD while I was there. It was one of those where I heard words and I understood them but a moment later I had forgotten everything you just said. This lady was so patient with me ( Read more... )

Last night I was just getting maxed out. I had so many things going on in my life that I wanted to talk to someone about and I was confused on things with Justin and had a few gripes about work and so many things and I just don't feel like I can tell anyone here. I'm not close enough to anyone like that that I can just sit down and tell them ( Read more... )

On other notes. I've connected with an old friend again. I can't find the ones I want but someone else fell into my lap. Lee came back. He said after years of acting like a child he was ready to be a man and speak to me again. We had a falling out. Lee had a crush on me and I never looked in his direction so we fell apart. It hurt. We spoke maybe a ( Read more... )

I called home to find a name of an old friend. I don't know why but it had been bothering me that I couldn't remember their name. I got it and sat on my bed. I felt utterly lost. I felt as if I was in a hotel room in a foreign place and yet I kind of am. This place is still foreign and I'm not home. I'm not even in driving distance of home ( Read more... )

Brian once said that I'm better at concentrating when I drink because it helps slow my mind and I can better focus instead of having everything go so quickly so heres a bunch of thoughts that have been running through my head all at once ( Read more... )

Well school is done with and its time for work. I'm starting to look for federal jobs and speaking to others who would know more than I who can guide me. We shall see... and in the mean time I'm getting to like my guys at the new shop. One of them said he didn't have a fourth of july. This upset me because I kinda had two. He said he wasn't really ( Read more... )

I'd like to dedicate this entry to my two dearest friends Melissa and Nathan ( Read more... )

Just Mmmm happiness ( Read more... )

Last night I got all my notes together and walked in to take a test. I had a little bit of headache but it was standable. As a half an hour went by of me reading my eyes started to hurt, my head started to pound but it was okay. The next half an hour went by and I tried to lay my head down on the table and close my eyes for a few minutes to calm my ( Read more... )