I had my "regularly scheduled" appointment today. I think things are starting to come full circle. We've talked about Mom, Dad, the (not entirely in a bad way) overbearing stepdad, crossroads in my life, being overly protected, Key and family...I came to a realization today: I am tofu. Actually, it's a little term that I've used for people in ( Read more... )

I haven't written in a while for a few reasons ( Read more... )

Well, at least on myself ( Read more... )

My sister just had a baby! Key went to the hospital and got to see Jacob. Had to induce since it was taking "so Long", and had some gunk in his lungs, but sounds like he's ok now. I'm sure Key will have more to say about the wonders of mondern maternity wards when she posts next.

This is the first part of my question...the second part, recently, has been "to screw things up more??" For those just "tuning in", a sketch of the details can be found below in other entries. I have a problem with lying; more directly, lying to keep disappointment away from myself. Seems like the more I think about it and recollect data from my ( Read more... )

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We recently found a few snippets of info that may connect the use of progesterone cream with clotting. With the death of our 17 week old (Kevin Angel) during pregnancy due to complications we had no idea about, clotting becomes a huge issue and the possible usage of something that possibly promotes clotting would be disastrous. The advice of the ( Read more... )

Well, no great rays of light from going to the phych. yet. She does think I did the right thing coming in, and I've got another appointment for next Monday. Guess that will be my "clean your head out" day. I brought up most of the stuff I've broght up here...no, I did leave out the whole "sociopath" theory, since that has been debunked by the ( Read more... )

Well, the time for apologies is over...the time for skulking in the shadows long past. As they say, "actions speak louder than words..." This is a quote that I am well aware of, and I do say 'aware' of. I have lived my life for who knows how many years nodding my head in approval of this and wholeheartedly agreeing with it. I think, no, know ( Read more... )

Some scars are physical, like the ones you hear old men tell tales about when fighting in a war may have meant something; or the stupidty of youth when you go one direction and wanted to go another; or the product of someone else's mistake. Not all are looked back upon with fond memories, some are memorials to old friends who didn't make it ( Read more... )