The insomnia is back, I think too much. My brain is more active at night when I'm tired. My mind goes into an endless labyrinth of theories and arguments. My bedroom ceiling is boring to look at. I need to stop studying so much. The more I learn the more I think. Drinking doesn't slow it down. I need to sleep. One more page, one more page. I think ( Read more... )

Soooo I got a heart condition. You know those indicators telling you "Go see a doctor dummy"? Well I'm pretty much in the red on this one. Do I care? Well yeah I do care but at the same time my whole attitude on situation has become blase. All the shock and terror of death pretty much left after I was out of high school. I kind of wish I wasn't so ( Read more... )

Two conventions in two states in one week? Can it be done? YOU'RE GODDAMN RIGHT IT CAN BE DONE! Here are the highlights of both ( Read more... )

But it's time for me to take a bow and say goodnight.

It took me a whole two days, TWO DAYS, having a song in my head that I didn't know any lyrics to nor did I know the title. I remember hearing the song a long long time ago, possibly well over a decade, it's an epic rare if it's ever played on the radio. Anyways, the melody haunted me for last few days, I went to sleep with it in my head, woke up ( Read more... )

What a trip. Got to hang with friends and family. I forgot how much I missed trees and the beach. Visited my home town of Sunnyvale and there was just too much nostalgia overload starting with my old neighborhood growing up to my elementary school, Jr. high and of course high school and on to all the parks I use to cause trouble in.

And I'm not going to delete this entry like I did the last four. To bad I have nothing interesting to say except I'll be back in California in two weeks for friends, family, trees and possibly the beach. Vegas lacks anything scenic except Red Rock and maybe the lake. Theres a lot of wind storms here lately and considering I work outside it kind of ( Read more... )

To be honest I thought I would be dead at this point. Hmmm

Shoulda, coulda, woulda, here’s the long awaited update. I live in Las Vegas (again) and it is still a dirty town but I love it. Why would I do this, just up and go away abandoning a good paying job, my many friends, the beach, trees, my lovers, good weather and of course my family? Well... because I can. I am not married and I have no children. It ( Read more... )

Oh Saturday night you son of a bitch! You know I have to wake up in a few hours for work yet you torment me every Saturday by keeping me up. It’s like a party I want to leave but can’t because the person that drove me here is out on the balcony making small talk with a girl he just met but she’s very sweet and being kind to him but even though she ( Read more... )