Its been a long time. 
Life is better and getting even better, i'm winning but i got to keep fighting to stay on top.

just trying to sleep off the thought of you being totally over me...

3 years, that didnt take long for you to be like everyone else

loves you though...and everyone else

muah

see/talk to you all tomorrow

is thinking that he thought they were best friends, but she dont miss him obviously..

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So its been awhile since I have written on here. A couple of crazy months.
I have been working out of state, performing.
I transferred schools. So I am off the semseter, still need to apply to schools.
So I get back from my summer semester and party way too much.
Then I go vist my best friends, and it was half great, half annoying. 
I have this guy ( Read more... )

Well I woke up today hopeing to be better from drinking to much.
Yeah didnt work.
At least its my 800 cal day.
I hate my life.
I hate that I drink so much.
My head still hurts I just wanna feel better, and I think I need a meal. 
So I woke up and ate
Apple cinn rice cake- 50 cals
Black cherry fat free yogart- 70 cals
Veggie Crackers- 120cals
240cals
Then I ( Read more... )

So I hate everything about myself.
i cant see my friends or even talk to anyone, for the fear that they might look at me.
Yesterday was a all organic day.
I leave in two weeks. 
Two weeks from today.
I wanna be 15lbs smaller.

I did something crazy, I dyed my hair. Blonde.for me thats crazy cause I have really dark hair.
I am off to the gym.
Havent eaten ( Read more... )

My mother is such a bitch.
She is always telling me, suck in. Dont eat that.
blah blah.
Mom your fat too. I wanna yell at her.
I think I need to drink some water.

Having that much blood taken has weakened me twice as much.

My head hurts,
And  I can not stop think about how gross I feel.
I have been cast as a kit kat girl in Cabaret in the end of August.
Yes Cabaret as in underware, corsets, fishnets and high heels.
And sure I am the second best dancer in my class, so I should have 
that role, but they are going to take one look at me and put me in the back.
Allowing sucky ( Read more... )