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time. what a bitch.
hurts to think this time last year i was gearing up to get married to the only girl i have ever felt like i actually wanted to go threw it with. it was also about this time last year that i left rudd and diamond, thus leaving myself to fall into a sick depression that drove her and everyone else away. looking back at all of it now, its so easy to ( Read more... ) -
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soooo....being single sucks. i realize i havnt been single for long and yeah i can imagine it gets easier but damn, not having anyone there to be with when i get home is killing me. i miss being able to get home and cuddle with laura and talk about our days are how crappy people are to eachother. i miss feeling like someone wants to share their ( Read more... ) -
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soooo....being single sucks. i realize i havnt been single for long and yeah i can imagine it gets easier but damn, not having anyone there to be with when i get home is killing me. i miss being able to get home and cuddle with laura and talk about our days are how crappy people are to eachother. i miss feeling like someone wants to share their ( Read more... ) -
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so i think ive come to develope some sort of a multiple personality disorder. not as clinical as it sounds or atleast i hope not, but i find myself torn between two sides of myself. i find myself in constant heated battle with the part of me that loves to feed off of anger, sadness, and distrust. i go from elated thoughts of all the possible ( Read more... ) -
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its sad how time just passes you by. i was thinking about all the time we spent together thinking things were perfect. engulfed in an illusion. she walked slowly, trudging past the wilted lillies and the scattered corpses. there was nothing left here she thought, so she casually strolled away into the distant unknown. this is the 2nd week of me ( Read more... ) -
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its starting to slip again. my mind asks why when the answer is in the question. the more i think about how i act the more i understand why i don't appeal to anyone. I'm a loser. i need to get out. i need to lose touch with my mind and let it deal with things the way it feels the need to. i am no longer anythign of value to anyone or anything. i am ( Read more... ) -
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crimpt inside my pocket, your picture tells a story ( Read more... ) -
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simply put things are not as bad as i want them to seem. thats always been a problem of mine. i find myself overwhelmed by the thought of something possibly obscuring my path and sight of my goal. there is got to be something i can do about that. i am trying. i have decided. i am going to give it all of i've got and i will make the best of this. my ( Read more... )