I'd post... but right now.. it feels like my mind is blank. Kinda like I'm some sort of zombie. I have no thoughts, no emotions, no nothing. The only thing I CAN feel, is complete numbness throughout.

Fuck it all. I'm tired of being hurt. Not placing any blame... but I'm tired of it. I'm not letting my walls down again. I'm not going through this one more time. I seriously don't know what to do. It feels like someone ripped my heart out of my chest, and beat it with a fucking sledgehammer. Ok, fuck this, this is the end of this post. I'm going ( Read more... )

I really don't know why I'm updating, it's not like anyone READS my journal anymore. I don't know what's going on in my mind anymore. It's all a jumbled mess. I can't sort out my ideas, or my thoughts. They're all intertwined. I never know if I'm coming or going anymore. Maybe I'm going fucking crazy. I have no clue. But it matters not anymore.

I really don't know what to say. I just felt like updating, so maybe I'll just ramble on like a dumb prick. Anywho, I would just like to know why girls feel the need to stay with a cocksucker faggot loser that cheat on them? Especially when they deserve WAY more than that asshole. I don't get it, jerkoffs like that can keep a woman. Yet, it takes ( Read more... )

I'm only updating to say Happy Birthday to Morgie. Go, go, go, go, go Morgie, it's ya birfday, we gon party like it's ya birfday, we gon sip bicardi like it's ya birfday, and you know we give a fuck that it's ya birfday. ;x Ha, I know how much you love that song, so I figured I'd sing it to you. Anywho, yeah, Morgie I just wanted to let you know, ( Read more... )

Every where I turn, depression and heartache. Seems like everyone I know is going through some trying times right now. Could that be the reason why I get depressed so much, because I take on other peoples problems as my own to try and help them solve these problems? I don't know what it is. I don't know if that could even happen. I just wish I ( Read more... )