Have you ever cared so much for someone that you were willing to go out on a limb and take a chance for them ... only to be shot down by none other than that very same person. That's definately what this feels like. WHY CAN'T YOU SEE THAT?

.... because obviuosly I'm screwing things up royally. Why am I so crappy at life lately? Why can't I get my life straightened out? 
Jesus ... take the wheel.

As a senior, I feel like I am sitting on the edge of a giant cliff. I am walking a fine line between falling into oblivion and having the most amazing time of my life. As I try to decipher what I want out of these last few months at home, I find myself more and more scared of making a bad decision and less and less sure of what I want. Should I ( Read more... )

Days Gone By Gavin Mikhail lyrics

I won't break
Down this way
I will hold on for one more day
If you'll help me make
Myself feel
Something so much more than this
Something that's real
I'll live, I'll love, I'll carry on
Pretending I don't notice that you're gone...

But, god I miss you
So much it hurts sometimes
And, I can't bring us back to
All the ( Read more... )

Quick update ....

Good bye Drew. It was fun, but it wasn't meant to last.

Hello new fishes, Pudge and Migo!!! You are adorable!

Florida was amazing! Fun in the sun!

Christmas is coming. Joy.

I'm afloat in a sea of indifference.

The End

Life is so cruel. It is so hard to be strong, especially when you know that you have to be strong, not only for yourself, but for the one you love. Sometimes I just want to run away ... to him. When I talk to him and hear his voice, sometimes I just let tears stream down my face, and he always knows. And he understands. He tells me to wipe them ( Read more... )

So children, here is the deal ( Read more... )

Found this song. Really like the chorus. It goes like this: "This is ten percent luck, twenty percent skill Fifteen percent concentrated power of will Five percent pleasure, fifty percent pain And a hundred percent reason to remember the name!" Story of my life.

You Are a Purple Flower
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So it's official. I am going to Alaska this summer. I just got the call from the director of the camp and he said that everything is a go. I'm excited and scared all at the same time. I mean I am excited to seve God in a new way, but I have never been away from home for that long before. But I know God will be with me. So, I'm out. Yay for spring ( Read more... )