Saying goodbye is too hard, maybe we should have just said 'see you later', although i'm not sure if it would have made much of a difference. I was strong to their faces though. I finally broke down on the bus. I miss them so much already. Three months is a fucking long time. How am I going to do this? I'm so used to having her around 24/7, and I ( Read more... )

25 hours until I leave. I'm almost done packing. One suitcase left. I'm really not looking forward to leaving. (Im gonna miss you sooo much, Tessa.)

Penguin and I went to hooters. We had 50 wings. Iced tea. And window shopping. It was fun. I think my fave part was the scary china man who has no teeth and hissed. :|. Im never forgetting that.

/sigh ( Read more... )

Spin out on a silver thread -
Dance across the web,
Wrapped in a bloodied cocoon;
Some parasitic dream, borne wing over wing.

You try to fly, but stick -
Faster.
Wings beat, eyes glaze over -
Escape the chrysalis to show a haggard outer skin.

Glide towards the embers -
Incandescent suffering saps more love than hate -
And you know, you know...
Drift on the ( Read more... )

I've been watching you from a distance
But distance sees through your disguise
All I want from you is your hurting
I want to heal you
I want to save you from the dark

Give unto me your troubles
I'll endure your suffering
Place onto me your burdens
I'll drink your deadly poison

Why should I care if they hurt you
Somehow it matters more to me
Than if I were ( Read more... )

Lying beside you
Listening to you breathe
The light that flows inside of you
Burns inside of me
Hold and speak to me
Of love without a sound
Tell me you will live through this
And I will die for you
Cast me not away
Say you'll be with me
For I know I cannot bear it all alone

And once again he ditches me. That's fucking great.

Seriously, if you aren't there when I leave.. Im never speaking to you again.

Im sick of this shit.

Honestly.

You claim we are still best friends.

Why am I having major doubts?

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Seriously best ever.
We had a game date tonight.
I learned some stuff about him.
His fears, dreams, and how his mother passed away.
I love how when I feel all sad and stuff for him, he does the randomest things to reassure me that things are fine.
We agree on way too much. Have the same views on basically everything.
My life fails.
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I don't know what I would have done if I lost him the other night.

I'm quite pathetic... I think...

I'm just happy he's doing better, and seems to be his old self again, minus the drinking.

Writer's block finally left me today...

Drop the gun.
Wall's beating blackly in the dark;
Suffocates that last remark.
Constricting. Seething in silence:
Poisoned by chance,
Erased by ideals.
Lost above the surreal,
Walk your razor's edge
With your head twisting, breaking -
Higher, higher...

Relax.
Unclench your fist.
The more you resist,
The harder a fight you ( Read more... )

I just just just woke up from a nightmare. Once again it had to do with tornadoes.

Meaning-

To see several tornadoes in your dream, represent people around you who are prone to violent outbursts and shifting mood swings. It may also symbolize a volatile situation or relationship.

Always my favourite.

It was so fucked up. It was in Edmonton but ( Read more... )