I'll start with what happened yesterday. Mark and i went to the mall to go shopping. He wanted to get new sneakers and i wanted to browse clothes and get a book i've been waiting for. Well halfway through, after he gets his shoes Mard starts getting bored or so he says. Turns out it wasn't completely boredom and we ended up breaking up ( Read more... )

Well, ever since wednesday I just can't seem to get enough sleep. I go to work tired and not quite alert all the time. Even yesterday when I got over eight hours I still felt tired at work. I felt better when I was talking to Angel and when the guys invited me to play spades, but I after awhile I couldn't breathe so well cause we were in the ( Read more... )

Not even a week in and I'm already fucking things up between Mark and myself. I made a boo boo. He was having issues with a friend and I stepped in. For future reference this is a big no no unless asked. Oh well. At least he still loves me. I just hope he can forgive me for my lack of brains. Yeah turns out that my feeling yesterday had ( Read more... )

Another day, another feeling that something is about to happen...only this time it doesn't seem to involve me much at all. It feels like something to do with work so it might not have to do with Mark either. I'm only stressin a bit with Mark, cause he has some issues with friends that are upsetting him and i hate to see him so hurt. I love him ( Read more... )

EXCEPT MAYBE ONE! WHOO HOO! My head is still spinning, my lips are still tingling and every nerve is vibrating with the need to turn my ass around in this chair, call him back to my side and make sweet love to him all night! But, I wanted to be the good girl, the respected girl and I wasn't going to be persuaded no matter how much I wanted to be ( Read more... )

I cann't believe the phone call I just got. It was Mark who was clearly very upset. After going through the measures to cheer him up he brought up my last journal entry. He said he now knows what I went through. He now knows what it's like to be replaced. Then...he asked for me back He said it like..."Rachel, could you find it in your heart ( Read more... )

Now that my temper is finally subsiding I can give the rest. He did say he was sorry and that he felt like an asshole and I had every right to be pissed off. He apologized for hurting me...though he hurt me more than I let him know. I'm lucky my mascara didn't run. And we have a resched for Wednesday. He promised...should I believe him. He ( Read more... )

OF ALL THE SHIT! I AM SO FUCKING TIRED OF CRYING OVER HIM! What the fuck am I supposed to say! I can get over it cause I bend to your every will! FUCK NO! I am my own person now and I don't fucking run on anybody elses agenda! So I sat there and waited for over an hour for the fucking taurus to pull up, but it never did. And I start getting ( Read more... )

I should have known this would happen. It's not the first time it has happened, but at least last time he had an excuse. I haven't heard from him yet...and I feel betrayed. HE SAID NOON DAMMIT! And then he has the nerve not to show up and not call. This is so fucked up. Here I sit all dolled up, decent enough to go out into public and he ( Read more... )

Tonights work was easier, but for some reason it felt like I just went through a repeat of my first night of work. Only this time it's my legs. I'm alright, just a little sore. I feel good about my work though, cause we had seven palettes and we managed to finish breaking down all of them before lunch. Then I took infants again and i had about ( Read more... )