Its amazing how long you let yourself put up with lies when you love some one. It sucks, but hey, whatever. I'll learn. I'm not gonna stop loving, I just need to stop loving the wrong people, because I seem to do that way too often ( Read more... )

people need to grow up
seriously
i don't understand what people get from acting the way they do..
sure, i'm immature at times, but in a FUN way for christ's sake
yet i'm the one who feels like the idiot right now..

ugh! DIE!

why him? honestly.. why? i really don't see the reason, especially after that..

why can't i be good enough?

ya, so as if my money situation wasn't bad enough, i go into work today and find out i can't deliver anymore until i get car insurance again since mine just got cancelled due to being poor and not being able to pay the last payment. so now this makes it harder to even get the insurance for my mom's car when i get it next month, and it looks like i' ( Read more... )

Today i was gonna get my new tire.. really didn't feel like it. i'll try and motivate myself to get it tomorrow, but i'll probably just end up going until it goes flat, just hopefully not on the highway again ( Read more... )

so what did you "need" me for? to make yourself feel better by putting me down still? by talking down to me, then apologizing so that i wouldn't leave and you could do it again? Fuck you. I tried to be there as a friend for you, STILL, after everything you did to me, and you turn around and try and make me feel like an asshole again. whatever, you' ( Read more... )

I still have so much fucking alcohol left

who want to help me finish it off?

i remember this feeling
the shaking
the images

fuck

It's amazing how quickly people change and completely stop caring about your feelings. How everything they said and promised was all fake. Every fucking word I said was in sincerity, but I guess that meant nothing. Its amazing how quickly your love for someone can turn into complete hatred when you finally open your eyes and see what they're doing ( Read more... )

i've finally realized there is something seriously mentally wrong with me. this is not one of those things that i'm saying because i'm depressed, but because i truly do. i completely broke down tonight, and did shit i shouldn't have. i'm still sitting here shaking really bad as i type, and i feel incredibly sick to my stomach. i wish i knew what ( Read more... )