I've wanted to be special. I've wanted to be great. I've wanted success. And before the week came to a close a student, passing through town, stopped in to say hello to me. As if I had some sort of impact on his life. I will never forget it. It has made all of the difference. What is my calling? And have I found it?

Im drowning....Im spread so thin I know I will break. Im on go all day fufilling obligations. I dont want to care so much about the outcomes but it's in my DNA.

So, the next chapter in my life is supposed to include getting married, solidifying my career, and having babies. Well I think Ive got the girl. I ve got to get the ring and etc. she has met my family, things went well. She is definitely loyal and reliable. I love her ( Read more... )

I broke my friends bed cuz I'm so fat.
I haven't seen her in months and she talks to her boyfriend all night

I have definitely steam rolled this one and blame only myself. I have a tendency to act dumb so that others underestimate me...so then when I do alright that are shocked and I look amazing. manipulative I know. and also it works to my benefit most of the time. people trust slow people for some reason. either way now, I get talked to like im some ( Read more... )

Ifeel like I'm back I'm high school. Loading my plate to the point of overflowing. Yet, still balling it up like a piece of paper, expecting the weight to change. Sometimes I just want to run away from everything like I didn't exist. No expectations no nothing. Rape, drugs, homelessness, suicide, insecurity to the point of insanity, and ( Read more... )

The past does come knocking at this hour. I am reading a book that reminds me of you. And damnit it's the wrong time for this. I dreamt of u only days ago and I have to face the truth... My heart will not Let go of you until it is consumed by someone else. Your hold isn't as strong but I just wish I could have done things differently. Hindsight ( ( Read more... )

I feel like my life is full of people that I used to know.

I don't believe in "Soul Mates", two people who are fated to be together (the traditional term). The idea that one person is created for another isn't ludicrous if you apply the equal and opposite balance theory. But... until some circumstance causes me to believe differently ( Read more... )

In love with a memory ( Read more... )