i hate you brian keith swider
i put myself on the line for you
my heart
my mind
my body
my soul

go fuck yourself
because of you
i feel like i am inept
thanks

if i told you i slit my wrists ( Read more... )

38 lines
bleeding
dripping from my wrists
the drive home was a relief
comfort to say the least
i feel so adolescent
doing such things as this

but god damn
it felt fucking good..

i wanted colace
or exlax
but i am too broke for such fine things
so magnesium citrate will do
i will become weightless
even if it kills me..

i casually walked to the bathroom
and found my hidden secret
i used it
i loved it
good god
it felt so good

to be completely engulfed in self-hatrid ( Read more... )

i hid a knife beneath the sink
to keep protected in my own skin
if it starts crawling once more
i will just cut it off..

i fight for something that's not guaranteed ( Read more... )

pulling at my own hair
i will figure this all out
i need to be locked away
forever

and that i shall do
in due time

i want to bitch and not have anyone know. i want to say after losing someone in my life like steven. not that i knew him completely. but his friends. damien. amber. cody. zac. hurts me more than ever. getting the closure i received today from mary hit my like a ton of bricks. i want to feel the sharp twinge of a blade on my wrists. i want to feel ( Read more... )