I am gonna leave this journal be, to let it die in peace. And now it is for good. If you still want to read about my life then please read my new diary at turnfalkens.livejournal.com/ . This diary has done it's job and I needed a new start. Goodbye dearhearts.

I am so sorry that I do not see your pain, or understand it. It doesn't mean that I don't love you, it's just... it's just that... I am too busy dealing with my own.

A lot has happened and then nothing has happened. I have had two better days. Or three if we count saturday too. I have slept well for the last few nights. On Sunday I actually managed to go the gym and do some grocery shopping. I made some food, visited mum and my brother. Cleaned this damn computer table too. I didn't know I could fir that much ( Read more... )

Numb is good....

I really should update this more often. Why I am not. I dont't know. Maybe I have lost my muse. I have updated my finnish diary more often. I think the reason behind me not updating this one in englisih is because I have been inspired to write in finnish. And Yeah, I do not want to write them twoce and in different languages ( Read more... )

It seems taht I have lost my words.... I rarely write in english anymore, to blog(s) I mean. It seems that I cannot express myself in english the way I used to... And I find it sad. I hope this journal does not die because of it. *sigh ( Read more... )

I just can't keep away from here. So I am going to keep updating this...from tie to time. I have a blog elsewhere where I write in finnish. But somehow writing in english is so much more natural here. I did spend time here for years. So I am back... the prodigal daughter returns.

I have decided that I won't be writing here anymore. But I will keep this blog alive somehow. :D  You will reach me better at http://paradoxical-unenruhtinas.blogspot.com/

Moving... it's fun and it is sad. I know I have to throw some stuff away, because they just do not fit my new apartment, but it's so hard to do. Yesterday I was packing my beloved books and I am glad that I do not have to leave 'em behind or throw away. That would break me ( Read more... )

So yeah, I got enough sleep this time. Woke up only four times during the night. But now this headache is just as crippling if not more so. What have I done to deserve this?