So if yesterday was awesome.... today has been awfull. And I have been aweke for 50 minutes or so. I wake up, get up, get some coffee and come online... well what else could I do? I have no life anyways.... Okay. So I check this one forum where I visit often and my day starts by defending why i dressed the way I dressed on Halloween. I did dress ( Read more... )

Today has been wonderful, even when I had to wake up early. Oh well, sometimes it's just worth it ( Read more... )

Once I am dying to be perfect. I want to be perfect. I want to look good, like a woman. I do not.... I just don't. And above all that I am afraid that I won't get the apartment I want. I am so scared that my dreams will once again crushed to pieces...

It's Halloween again. The long waited day. The day One can dress up for the shock value. No wonder I love this so much. :D ( Read more... )

I am supposed to get ready for work, I don't want to. Growing up scares me... working means growing up, I don't want to grow up...ever. I am too soft for  the grown up world. People think I have thick skin and they can hurt me all they want and I never get wounds... I have wounds...wounds that cannot be healed. Yet I smile... some twisted logic is ( Read more... )

Now it's real. I have officially begun to search for apartment for myself. I am fed up living here. No I am not fighting with mum... or anything. Everything is fine... and I am pretty sure that I will miss living here when I am on my own... but I have to grow up someday... though I will never ever completely grow up. :D ( Read more... )

Just around two more weeks... unless I am counting wrg. Wouldn't surprise me though. Haha. I love that party. Hmm... it might be a bit cliché that a goth girl loves Halloween, but hey, I am a clihé... so why not my love of Halloween. I just love saying it hallowween halloween halloween, All hallows eve... muahahahhaaa ( Read more... )

Miten sitä voikaan sattua kun tajuaa, että ihmiset jotka ovat sinulle tärkeitä... unohtavat sinut. Tai eivät vain halöua olla tekemisissä. Viime aikoina olen huomannut tämän reaktion. Ihmiset katoavat ympäriltäni. Ovat niin onnellisia omassa pienessä maailmassaan, että netissä tavatuille ystäville ei vain riitä aikaa ja kiinnostusta. Se sattuu, ( Read more... )

So last I wrote I had lost two kilos in one week... well I have managed to eat thos kilos back in two days. I guess taht's an achievement too. Not a good one, but one none the less. I feel like a failure. Everytime something good happens, I manage to screw it up. No one else... me. The sad thing is that I am too tired of blaming others of my ( Read more... )

Life is weird. One day I am sad beyond belief, then the next day I love everything and every one ( Read more... )