the last days have been shit. ive felt so bad about myself and my body. i just look myself in the mirror and want to cry. ive gained weight as well, which makes me even more sad ( Read more... )

i give up ( Read more... )

My heart is where I long for you ( Read more... )

i just had a package of digestive cookies, was going to save them for tomorrow when my friend is coming, but could not resist. then i went to the bathroom and couldnt get them up, the only thing that came up was the healthy dinner i had a few hours later. i was so proud of eating stirfried spinach, tomato and onion and really wanted to keep those ( Read more... )

i want chocolate! dark delicious chocolate that will melt in my mouth. or timtams. or white choclate. or cookies. or just anything i can put in my mouth ( Read more... )

havent eaten anything today and will go to bed in a short bit.

im so good!

this morning i woke up with a black tongue. scary but true. i havent lied too much. i promise. but thanks to meizo i found that it is due to poor diet, bad mouth hygiene and stress/depression. why am i not surprised ( Read more... )

shit, i almost mananged 5 days without binging-purging, with strong emphasis on almost ( Read more... )

my eating patterns are totally revolving around my emotional state of mind. if you read the posts i made last week when i was constantly binging, it is easy to see how sad and depressed i was. i had panic attacks and could not control my emotions at all. i remember last thursday when i was sitting under my desk shaking and crying, just having ( Read more... )

hm.. i've been in the library all day thinking about what to write here when i get home. normally i think about what to eat when i come home, but this is so much more constructive! i also managed to get some work done and met some friends, so in general a pretty successful day. tonight i'll go and watch syriana with a friend. that'll be cool ( Read more... )