Comments | diamondjul: I really feel like I'm losing my best friend, I can't believe this could be real.

diamondjul

I really feel like I'm losing my best friend, I can't believe this could be real.

Jun 23, 2006 11:40

My pool is officially ready! I can't wait to go swimming with um my friends? And by that I mean Rob. Becasue he is slowly becoming my only friend. But it is my fault anyway. Summer has been pretty good so far. I actually got to hang out with Marsh like twice and some other people too. I don't know why I am such a bitch. I am sorry. I just ( Read more... )

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confoosed_jr June 24 2006, 15:53:12 UTC

i will still be your friend
i mean i guess..cuz i know you smell and all...but i think i can handle that
oh and the random mood swings, i can handle those too, after all, i did handle you pushing me to the ground when we were little, ya know.

and i know how you feel about your brother leaving...
michelle just left a couple days ago, and i realize i prolly wont see her untill christmas.

k thats all.

Sorry magermallow June 24 2006, 17:30:18 UTC

ok, so I know this is old, Idk if it changed now but you still wrote it. And this mood/entry type always comes back like two days after everythings "fine" again. This situation is not fair. No matter what happens I am not allowed to say anything b/c I don't want to offend anyone. I don't want to offend you b/c despite whatever I am to you now, you're my best friend. I don't want to offend Rob b/c I like him and I don't want to make him feel weird. I don't want to offend both of you for the same reasons and b/c I'm so glad that you finally found a boy who you trust and who really loves you for you. But you just keep saying stuff that makes me feel bad and it's not fair that i can't say anything. I don't know what you want me to do in order to still be your friend...So I guess I have to retire my whole life and sit around while you hang out with Rob and work. (PS these are the things I'm nbever allowed to say for fear of offending) And then the second you are free I will get off my ass and run to you and we will be best friends and hang ( ... )

Re: Sorry magermallow June 25 2006, 00:19:36 UTC

sorry marsh i didn't know that's why you didnt like the 3rd wheel situations...Now i know why you siad you didnt like them.

Re: Sorry magermallow June 25 2006, 02:30:58 UTC

i think this is rob, and honestly im so sorry, this is why i never want to say anything b/c i dont want to make either of you feel bad about it! I really don't i want you guys to hang out and have you little cuddly cutesy (you know things that i joke about making me throw up and stuff) as much as you want. I just dont want to be the weird one out you know? it's not like its just you guys.. it'd be with anyone at all. Sorry but, i could tell if i let this go anymore it was jsut gonna get worse or i was gonna explode reaaally bad one day and hurt peoples feelings from letting things get too weird between everyone.

Re: Sorry diamondjul June 25 2006, 03:53:30 UTC

Thanks for finally standing up for yourself. Kinda gay that you had to do it in my Livejournal. I am sorry for feeling the way I do. I am sorry for making you so upset. I am also sorry for not being used to you having fun with out me. So now I am going to sound like a little bitch and explain myself. In the days before Rob, you and I were inseperable. We went everywhere together and everyone knew this. We had fun together. Now in the days after Rob, we don't really do that anymore and I know you go out and have fun with others and I am not used to it. I am not saying that you have to sit on your ass and wait for me. And since we are getting things out in the open that really pissed me off that you said that. I know I am a bitch about it sometimes but I am joking when I say that stuff. And yea maybe I am a little jealous but I never think you should "fucking twiddle your thumbs" and wait around for me. The one time I did get a little upset about that was when I told you I could hang out later and then you did something ( ... )