long time, no see. its time to come back here, and leave my real thoughts. so i feel awkward. like. i just met him, well i just met both of them. why is garrett so far away? and keat, oh my. im really confused, i dnt wanna break it off with garrett, cause i like him, but keat is so much closer and cool also. im just gonna play it by ear, and ( Read more... )

i always miss the perfect oppertunities. first last night. i wanted to. but i didnt? so stupid .. and now .. now tonight. only 17 more days .. but not today. i know this feeling. this is the feeling of a rejected heart. grr. why didnt i? why didnt he ... is it not right? it should be ...

"are you stuck in a world you hate ( Read more... )

sum 41 was the BEST ever. it was so fucken fun. sarah is super cool too. now im going to simple plan and greenday. awesomeness. im upset i missed tbs .. cause they are the BEST ( Read more... )

i just got back from the show of a life time. sum41 was AMAZING. i havent had that much fun ... like .. EVER. good charlotte sucked fucken ass tho. 1st ... those pics must bve digitlly enhanced ... cause the ones that look cute arent ... and the ones that looked ugly ... not ugly. second they were "overweight" and lazy ... so not into what they ( Read more... )

well here i am confused again. im not broken up with jack .. i just wanted to test the waters .. u know? so anyways i pushed away the one i was intrested in, by talking tot eh one who im not. oh well. hung out with joy tonight ... such GOOD times. good good good. her friend katie is awesome. well anways ... goodnight. breakfast with the boss ( Read more... )

taking back sunday is very poetic. im pissed i missed the show .. oh well i guess. i got a car instead. a car ... its freedom. the last step. i just want control over my life again. i miss alot of things. this car is the best thing in my life right now. expecially since my boyfriend left me stranded ( Read more... )

well, jacks gone. i dont know how to feel, whate to say. i dont know if its ok, ok to cry, to hurt, i dont know whats even gonna happen. all i know ... is im sad. please leaveme alone.

hes moving. a year and then some down the goddamn tube. im depressed. why do i choose to question a good thing? all i was doing was wondering and then: BAM! it becomes truth, cold hard facts. nothing is ever good enough for me.i just gotta nudge and push, and always fuck it up. thats why people dont talk to me, because im so fucken horrible and i ( Read more... )

theres this lump in my throat that i keep trying to swallow. it all flashes everytime i shut my eyes. could you imagine that every time you closed your eyes the one person in the world you trusted was in someone elses arms? rubbing .. holding .. kissing .. touching. it makes it hurt more. i cant make it stop. they come .. more and more vivid ( Read more... )