Saturday was a blast.
Jessica, Adam, Matt&I
went to the Every Avenue CD release concert.
first on the stage was Time Enough At Last.
Always amazing.
Justin will always rock my world.
but, he didnt really talk to me all that much.
i guess he was busy.
or still mad about the sex thing.
yeah, i did it with a guy in a band.
haha.
then, there were other bands.
and ( Read more... )

 the only way ill keep myself alive
is if i stay in this chair.
cuz the pill are taunting me.
im a loser.
and no one should want to be around me.

Man, yesterday was the best day of being grounded so far.
&i didnt even get laid!
lol
during the day, i just sat off my ass on the computer.
then, Jessica, Dad&I went to the fish fry.
OMG. that place reeked of fish smell.
i wanted to barf.
then Jessica&I went to the mall to buy Daddio's birthday gifts.
but the best part of the night was coffee at Denny's
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lets start over.
im going back to the begining.
there is no turning back now.
im gonna make things right again.
friends.
family.
im gonna change.
i promise 

 loneliness has taken over my heart.
all i want is someone other then myself to care about.
someone to slide their fingers into mine.
someone to make sex intimate and not just fucking.
someone that i can hug and feel safe.
where is that feeling?
i wish i didnt care.
i wsh men werent such pigs,
liars.
i just want someone to love me.
or atleast try to
or give ( Read more... )

men suck.
plain and simple.
they can be the sweetest most caring guys
that make you laugh and smile.
but ive found, they are all the same.
just in this week alone,
ive been blown off by THREE guys.
i mean, it wouldnt be a big deal
if they didnt ya know, try to make me believe them.
but they put everything into this...lie.
so whatever.
im no longer making ( Read more... )

well, today was going to be a good day.
CJ was going to come over and we were gonna chill&play video games.
i got up at 9:30 and waited till ten.
[he was supose to call between nine and ten]
when he didnt call,
i called him.
lucky me, he gave me a wrong fucking number.
or im over reacting and i copied it wrong.
but i doubt it.
its 2 and i still ( Read more... )

if someone makes me a new lj and coustomizes it for me.
ill start using lj again.
ps.
i miss jakee like hxc.
anyone hear from him at all?

is it wrong to be as much inlove as i am?

i feel dirty, unclean and wrong.
but i just cant stop caring about him.
i just dont want him to be 400 miles away.

you know you're from fraser when ( Read more... )