i'm no longer going to be using this journal.
i'm like a hermit crab i swear, this is my 4th lj name in 1 year.
well, i'm now cyniadexsmiles and i should be staying on that name for a while.

writing in cyniadexsmiles for now.

nothing new. school makes everything fall into a horrible tedious pattern. shuffle from class to class my mind drifting off...

at least i have the weekends to look foward to. and saturday is me and kyles 3 month. <3 ( Read more... )

well friday kyle came over after school, and we took a nice 21/2 long nap. it was a wonderful nap. than we went down to sao paio around 7 and met up with amber and laine and than kyle's cousin todd. we hung out with them for most of the evening, and it started out fun but got progressivaly shitty. but lets not worry about that now ( Read more... )

fucking
depressed
stresses
tired
sick and tired
just fucking sick of everythingcant sleep. my eyes are heavy but my mind is awake. my heavy head lies on the pillow but my mind is nowhere within me ( Read more... )

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summer is winding down..eer i dont want to think about that ( Read more... )

too much time to think of the unpleasant things in live when i'm all alone ( Read more... )

Every scar is a memory. Most scream his name and whisper his lies as i try to fall asleep. Kept awake by the constand ringing in my head, no silence as i try to find him, to find my peace. Crimson tides pour from pale white skin as i try to etch out his name, as i try to blacken his memory ( Read more... )

new screen name= rotting666purity