it sounds like a long time ( Read more... )

the subject is where we are at all times. wheter it's as small a choice as, "what's for dinner?" or as big as, "will we last forever?"

My Y is huge at the moment

I feel like I've been with somebody consistantly for the last 4 weeks. I feel lke I haven't had any alone time, meditation session, One on One with the universe until today. The sweet sound of nothingness ( Read more... )

I'm in a transition. To let you all know, High flight risk. My mom says full moon is making me antsy. I say it's monotany. Although, my life has been far from routine the last 3 weeks or so. I just miss Josh, really. I want to live by him and him to live by me. He feels the same way. We've been talking more than ever lately and we talk the ( Read more... )

INSANITY!

Posh spice, come fucking play with me.

WHAT THE FUCK!?!

don't read too much into this.

Working, but not. No lessons, 2 lap swimmers.

Dinner tonight with Moiya, John, Erin (aka SATAN), Andrea (aka Laser), Janitor Mike, and me. I am dreading it.

Working with Tom isn't ( Read more... )

"...Small times predict my fate, perhaps that's what no one wants to see,"

That's how I feel. That I am who I am but there is nobody to see. People pretend to know. Only 3 do. Who are they? I know, but you don't. Only 2 of the 3 know. Why doesn't the other?

In a perfect world...

Finish my thoughts.

the last week has been one of those sometimes. I know I'm doing so many people dirty right now. Do I stop? No, I do more. Somebody left me a comment saying I need to resist evil. My question is, what if you are an evil person? Evil may be too strong a word, but on the same note, should we truly classify evil into degree's of severity or ( Read more... )

i have none. i have lost it all. all of my reaction and emotion aren't real anymore. I know what they look like so I imitate them. I don't actually "feel" them. I am a bad person. Now I have two choices: one is to embrace my evil and spread chaos and darkness around the globe or I can fight it off to the point where my evil only affects a few ( Read more... )