I got out of bed at 1 today. Not because I was sleepy, but because I had this horrible pain in my heart. It hurt so much to think that I basically destroyed my friendship with Kim and Edna, that it's never going to be the same, and worst, that I don't even have an eloquent response to what they had to say. They both wrote me long, I mean loooong ( Read more... )

Me and Alan are official....!!!!!

I'm so happy!!

I wish I could share this with my friends, but Kim, Edna and Randi are on another page. I told Maria and Kblu and they are happy for me. I'm so glad.

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ugh... need some sweet lovin. wish my babe could be here. wish i had my own place for the sake of intimacy. i miss him, and it's only been a day. he asked me to come over today, and i couldn't. no gas money. lots of money problems. wish everything would turn out okay. hoping for the best ( Read more... )

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Yesterday was so amazing!! Alan texted me, then we were talking, then i went to go visit him, per his sincere request. When I saw him, I knew I still liked him. He said he was stupid, a jerk, a dumbass for letting me go, especially the way that he did, that he misses me, that he's sorry. Then, he asked, "Can I kiss you now?" And we did. It was ( Read more... )

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Hey dreamer ( Read more... )

i dram about alan. i saw angel. i thought about xavier. i miss intimacy. i want to feel wanted. i feel like everthing is so unstable. you never know if you really hit it off. sex is sex. it's great. but that's all it is. there's no attachment. that's what i want. i want to miss someone so much that i'll travel far just to see them ( Read more... )

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I miss Alan. I spent almost the entire weekend with him and his friends and now I feel i need him by my side. He's already seen me in my most vulnerable states, and he didn't run away. He stayed there, while I cried, and kissed and hugged me until I was all better. How awesome is that ( Read more... )