It's way too late to be this locked inside ourselves ( Read more... )

Dear Santa,

I want the following please.

-a router for my laptop
-a stereo for my car
-Laura Perez's book
-make-up from the mac store

I've been a real bad girl though. If it helps any, it was all in the name of fun!

Diea

Thanksgiving was a blast once I left the house. It was so hard to get up out of bed, but once I did... man! Was it worth it! Alan called me when I was getting ready, and I ended up picking him up at Union Station. He told me he missed me and that I was a xula. Aww! He then proceeded to fuck my brains out for about two hours. Wow. That was ( Read more... )

I'm tired of checking my myspace and my facebook to see if Javier has sent me a comment of a gift. It's annoying. How did I get infatuated like this? He was the only guy that I could see myself dating for a long time and he just disappeared from my life ( Read more... )

Someone broke into my car and stole my stereo. Although I got the broken window replaced, I still have no stereo, which means I can't listen to all the CD's I made for the car!! Ack. My dad did give me a mini stereo that you can carry around. I have it in the car, so at least I have radio. It's hard to find a station, though. And I can't tune ( Read more... )

Miss the fervor of rallies, or chalking, of organizing, of being one with community, of being a scholar activist. Change is different within a bubble. Or maybe change is just different away from the bay area. I miss the bay area, maybe that's what's bugging me. The old all nighters and "studying" with the homies instead of studying for reals. ( Read more... )

And yet another page filled with sorrow, attempting to sympathize with anyone who has ever had their heart broken. The tears are common now, tears that quickly turn to blood as your discreet obsession and inhumane thoughts eat away at your soul. And well I guess not everyone deals with heartbreak the same way. But those who mourn are the ones ( Read more... )

I spent yesterday with Cesar and it was awesome. He is super romantic and sweet, but I kept on wishing it was Xavier. After a while of messing around,I finally cooled down and enjoyed the moment. He is so awesome. He's a giver, definitely. And he made me so happy yesterday. "I can cuddle with you all night babe." Aw. I feel wanted ( Read more... )

Xavier changed his status on facebook to "in a relationship" and "it's complicated." I feel heartbroken. I really like this guy, more than I can ever admit to him. Did my chance already pass? Or is this just an obstacle I need to overcome. I feel like I am just doing it to myself, inflicting pain into me for no apparent reason, creating drama for ( Read more... )

let me take your hand ( Read more... )