yesterday was the last day of school so yay! after school, i got grounded then ungrounded then just grounded from the phone (or else i would have called u sadie) and then i went to the movies wit tom, clinton, jack, and ian, and saw star wars. it rocked!!! wen i got home, i didnt fall asleep until about 700 am, woke up at 830, fell asleep at 10, ( Read more... )

today i had to go to my therapist.... ffffuuunnn.... she makes me so depressed sometimes.... oh well..... right now i am so bored but i am going shopping soon for my cruise so yay. ahh i feel so emotionless right now. oh well. today was boring. after school i did the same thing that i always do. hung out wit tom and other ppl. nothing deferent. i ( Read more... )

i wish my dad wouuld get counseling..... he is almsot as bad as my mom.... i hate it.... hes always drunk so he cant think straight and then i get the blame for everything gone wrong.... i would move back in with my mom but shes always high and i still get the blame..... either way, its all my fault.... i feel like i cant do ANYTHING right anymore ( Read more... )

okay so i have been crying a lot more than usual...... it sucks :( i hate crying.... i feel like im never gonna stop crying EVER ( Read more... )

im having mood swings today..... now im in a really good mood:) hey if anyone wants to save me, COME UP TO THE TASTE OF CINCINNATI!!!! i dont wanna b all alone :( neways ( Read more... )

okay so... last night was pretty fun!!! i went bowling wit tom maggie connley jessica caitlin and ben. twoards the end i started crying.... my god damn mother.... ill never stop crying will i?? it was because of those stupid notes and the fact that ill never have a mom again ( Read more... )

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i have been crying ever since i woke up..... i hate this.... i cant stand it..... my dad and i fought all morning literally.... hes blaming me for EVERY SINGLE FUCKING PROBLEM and then i found something from my mom.... she wrote one on may 5th and the other on may 7th.... i guess she was sober for once ( Read more... )

Deeper and deeper I go
Too lost to be saved
Too hopeless to be here
Too worthless to live
I can’t go on
Hidden pain bleeds
Words I can’t say
Stream down my face
Like clear blood
Too lost to be found
Dead to the world
Invisible to the world
Worthless to the world
Too lost to be found

Empty feelings
Burning desires
Dark thoughts
Haunting my mind
Stabbing my heart
Insanity befriends me
Sunken too deep
Too lost
To be saved
Never again
Will I be
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