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i dont even know what quixotic means...

why the fuck do i have to be such a pussy? i want something i can have and i dont go for it. I DONT FUCKING GO FOR IT. w/e. i'm never being a pussy again. if i ever be a pussy again, i'm gonna fucking punch myself in the face. GAHHHH. oh yeah, arian (not ariana) sorry for being such a pussy. peace.

I've reached a greater understanding of myself and others tonight. Its been pretty rough tonight. it was boring, it was angering, it was depressing, and all together shit. However, i've realized that i am one in the grander scheme of things. Call me what you will, call me crazy, call me mike, call me a dipshit call me anything. My perception ( Read more... )

Korn is brilliant. Man these guys are awesome. Moving song... Only melancholy cause of the song btw.

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Chillin eh? I'm bored. out of my mind. Sundays suck. this is boring. so fucking boring. People are annoying, gah! I know i'm bitching, but still, this is mad annoying. People bitching at everyone else creating problem after fucking problem its pissing me off. I wish i could just push a button and make shit stop, and people actually start ( Read more... )

Yo! I've been developing random tantrums of "I hate people because of (insert complaint here)." Its kind of annoying. Not fun. But Whatever, people piss me off sometimes that happens with everyone. Life is good. It's S'allllll good. Wildside friday. I'm gonna have some fun. ;)
peace.

Explanation for lack of posting and lack of AIM usage ( Read more... )

Closure here... If i were to get back with her i would end up killing myself eventually. I KNOW I will end up being hurt in the end, if not by her than by college or anything else. And if i cant keep myself together as is then how am i supposed to survive that? I feel sick. I wish i could stay with her. but i know that i would end up getting ( Read more... )

what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

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I feel sick... this is harder than i thought.