The more you try not to think about something, the more you end up thinking about it ( Read more... )

I've never been more glad to see a Monday morning. The weekend was exhausting. My son was sick and extreeeemely needy ( Read more... )

A few things that are going on in my life right now ( Read more... )

One thing I've noticed among ED people especially is the tendency to cancel out of plans at the last minute. I am SO guilty of doing this. I make plans with friends the full intention of following them through but then when the day actually rolls around I have the hardest time making myself actually go and meet up with the person. I usually feel ( Read more... )

I'm afraid to say too much because I might jinx it but I've been doing a lot better with some of the ED 'behaviors ( Read more... )

I want to cry. I want to feel. I want to be anything but numb ( Read more... )

I never thought I would say this, but I miss the hospitalI want to cry when I think of the support I had there anytime I wanted. I feel like I'm dangling, suspended in the air, waiting to fall. It seems strange for me to msis a place where there were so many rules I really disliked like: lights out at 10 PM, no caffeinated/diet drinks, having blood ( Read more... )

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It's always been a challenge for me to think of my teachers/therapists/doctors (etc.) as real people with lives of their own beyond their jobs at work. I know logically that their job is just one facet of them, but I find myself sometimes wondering what their home lives are like, what their families are like, what they like/dislike. No, I'm not a ( Read more... )

Last night was the worst night ever in terms of binging and purging. Or, perhaps I should say binging but NOT purging. It's like my stomach had a mind of its own and decided that it would not let me bring anything up. I was in so much pain, pain and discomfort like I have never felt before but no matter how hard I tried, no matter how much hot ( Read more... )