It's 4:00 PM. I'm feeling a little sick from not eating. I haven't had a single calorie today, only black coffee so far. I woke up feeling really swollen with water. The skin around my fingers was tight. I had a lot of salt yesterday so I kinda expected this suffering and brought it upon myself. I just like salt way too much for my own good. I pour ( Read more... )

My next IP date is coming up… in about 4-6 weeks ( Read more... )

This post is mostly in reponse to this post on my Blogger account ( Read more... )

I am THISCLOSE to being certified again ( Read more... )

Yesterday I caused a bit of a scene at group ( Read more... )

**Trigger warning ** Talks about binging and purging and ED behaviors ( Read more... )

I talked to my doctor for 1 hour yesterday. He squeezed me into his busy schedule because I was so upset about the confidentiality thing. He assured me that he, personally, has never shared any of my info and would never do such a thing. He also said that my feelings are definitely valid and he was shocked that his staff would divulge any info. He ( Read more... )

I am fuming, seething… soooo angry. There aren't even words to describe it. My blood pressure must have just shot through the roof. I have not felt this much emotion in a long time - it hit me so suddenly and now I have a terrible headache ( Read more... )

It is so embarrassing going into the lab every week for bloodwork. It's the same girls working there all the time. After > 1 year of doing this, most of them know me. Some of them are the same age as me. I've always hated that part of treatment: the med students and nurses and lab techs who are the same age or younger than me, making me feel even ( Read more... )

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