ranting probly won't help... i should know this by now. what eles can i do, its midnight? any way, i sick of this, i bet some people just belive i've gotten better at coping when in reality things haven't changed. they won't, i know what people see, and what they expect, but its hard to get teens to understand just what its like to be in love, and ( Read more... )

wow... this is an indiscribale pain, to miss the one you love most. the day dreams of being held and pampered the way things were before...simple... bliss is not something everyone finds and im begining to realize not every one even wants it, but im not willig to let go of it, even for a few months. sometimes things seem impossible but i wont let ( Read more... )

i have some good news and bad news.... i missed his call, and i hate the feeling that comes after i miss it. i miss him... a lot. there's no other way i wish to put that but, on the other hand i was accepted into bethany.

I got a call! i got a call! i got a call! he's bord but he's good and healthy, sorta he did just get mcdonalds. im a bit too happy and i love him! sorry ive been too excited ever since i herd his voice. no help that i almost cryied on the phone.

.....he leaves, tomorrow night. he just went to bed, i hope he sleeps better than i do, lol. well, any way im really gonna need friends, i know people are gonna help, but im really gonna need kindness, even if im not always so kind..... i apoligize now...ill try though...four month just seems soo long all of a sudden.....

well, i belive you all know what is going on so...he leaves sunday. i dont think i care to add anything eles sorry.

My luck changed, one week he's staying the next they decide they need him to leave. Yes, he's headed to Iraq, and to be honest I'm not happy about. but as long as he comes back nothing eles matters.

....well, lets see im trying to get applications for findly, erie, bethany, and wilson in by thanksgiving ( Read more... )

ike thinks i got a big butt! what do u think?

HELLO!!! lol well no one said anything in a while sooooo i guess ill post.... now i dont know what to say. nothing reallys been going on, ive just been babysitting and the kids i baby sit are moving away. we also had a riding camp for kiddos up at the barn and that was a lot of fun!! but very very tiring.... kk, bye