this week's song of the week is my current favorite song by the blow, fists up!

and the genius that ripped this messed it up at the end, but it just so happens that i like it better that way. sorry!

fists up for ridiculous hopes!

glowing eyes ( Read more... )

inspired by someone i sorta kinda know, i've decided to start a song/s of the week thing. every week, i will post a song. maybe it's something i recently discovered, maybe it's something i've rediscovered, maybe it's something i'm posting because the shit just makes me cry like a little gay baby who's lost both its parents and is blind. also, ( Read more... )

you can't be fully acquainted with the startling abundance of beauty and joy that life is constantly demonstrating unless you are also intimately familiar with the almost unbearable pain and suffering that is its shadow

memories like this still haunt me. it might sound stupid, but i really like francesca lia block's saying that "love is a dangerous angel." i've been so close with a few people and those people are far away both literally and metaphorically right now. when we were close, when we were each other's entire world, the thought that just a few years later ( Read more... )

remember that freeze video? if not, go here, read the first paragraph, and then watch the video below it.

anyway, this is going to be happening in portland. if you're interested in being a part of it, ( here is the info )

i think i'm going to start writing short stories. i might even start out with short stories and then meld them all into a novel. that's the only way i could do it. bits and pieces. then chunks. then it will just be about making the connections. i need structure, otherwise i'll never be able to do it. it will be difficult and it will take a ( Read more... )

amanda, i know you used to read this every now and then. i haven't heard from you for 8 months or so now. the last time i tried to contact you, i called 2 of the numbers i had for you. the land line was disconnected and the cell was answered by some guy who definitely wasn't anyone you would associate with. i didn't want to call your mom so as ( Read more... )

they float so lightly ( Read more... )

at work today, i spent a lot of time not working. i spent a good portion of the time staring at the computer screen. but i didn't see the computer screen in front of me. i was thinking. i spent much of the day just thinking. sometimes i stare, while inside my head i'm remembering the dream i had the night before. remembering how strange and ( Read more... )