I hate myself for being myself once upon a time. A person that gave so many situations up for grabs and not caring. I played my bets and only ever came out the loser in the long run and I was settling. Yet now, I could only beg for those things; a family and a love ( Read more... )

I feel swallowed by a wave and it has me tumbling on the bottom searching for the right way up to just get air. It was all a very pretty lie that made me believing that I was a demon and a terrible person. Forcing the thoughts in my head to let this illusion be constructed that I was terrible but I was wrong. Depression hit me and I shell up as ( Read more... )

It has been a long time since I wrote any words down ( Read more... )

I loved my grandma so much and she died tonight