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digitall

Confused

Jul 05, 2005 01:39

I wish I knew exactly what was going on. Maybe if someone reads this they can have a suggestion for me? Everyone who has read this recently knows about Mel and I breaking up and for some reason I'm taking it extremely hard. This isn't my first break-up by any means, and it isn't even my first where the other person has a new boyfriend within a week ( Read more... )

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miss__melis July 5 2005, 05:49:23 UTC

I need to talk to you tomorrow..call me whenever you want, k?
I'm sorry I'm too tired now, I'm dead..plus, you're working.

so..just give me a call.

digitall July 5 2005, 15:28:20 UTC

I think I'll do that...I know I really need to.

it's cool atangerine July 5 2005, 13:13:27 UTC

Hey man you really do sound a lot like I did when I was going through all that shit. you are at a low point but you've got to understand that the worst thing you can do is go around in circles thinking about the bad things that hurt you. You need to relax and just let all the badness flow in and out. It's a natural process to feel the pain but unnatural to keep stirring in it. The pain will leave you eventually if you let it. As far as snapping don't worry about that either, you are just confused right now. Your friends are changing and may feel like they don't have the time to bother. See i believe that true friends are hard to find. I've got like one right now. You know the kind of person that cares and you can always feel comfortable around. We spend so much time when we're young on superficial relationships for the sole purpose of acceptance. But where does that leave us in the end? Feeling empty, especially when everyone in your life suddenly isn't there when you need them and you have to rely on some stranger who's ( ... )

Re: it's cool digitall July 5 2005, 15:43:00 UTC

Thanks for all of that. I sort of feel the same way to some degree about church but a new one I've been to isn't like that at all. It may just take me some time to get used to the new one but it could be a much deeper issue or issues as well. At least this one isn't quite the same as old(er) guy standing on a stage and telling us we need to repent, etc. I agree that a lot of church now is mostly politics anyways which really kind of sucks.

I know the worst thing I can do is the circles thing but it isn't intentional - and if I knew how I'd stop it. But it just hits me when I least expect it and then just starts coming in waves and I can't stop it at that point. I'd rather it just not be there at all and me having some way to just avoid it than it hitting me in waves like that. And it's literally a physical response. My chest tightens up it just feels like I'm literally going to burst inside.

Thanks for the reply.

What to say... derekius July 5 2005, 17:33:11 UTC

Well, for starters, I am slightly saddened by the fact that you don't see me as close as I see you. Nick and I have been best friends since 7th grade, but ever since he left for Lee, it's almost as if he hasn't had time for me. When he is in town, he works around the clock to make plans with friends I don't know and going to KI or the movies, but I rarely see an invite. Since you and I got the apartment, we have obviously become better friends, and at this point i feel closer to you than I do Nick anymore ( ... )

Re: What to say... digitall July 5 2005, 19:46:29 UTC

Thanks for that dude. I don't think I really meant the part about not feeling quite as close to you because I know I am. There's no doubt you're my best guy friend, that's for sure. I agree, I do look at everything on a very negative approach - I think it's how I was raised? I don't know. I guess, if you always look at things in a bad light it's a lot harder to be dissappointed in the end. Then again, you don't appreciate the things in life that are going good for you nearly as much either ( ... )