so i just want to crawl into the nearest hole and die ( Read more... )

When you Said ForeverThe residue of all our yesterdays ( Read more... )

i think of her in the utmost respect. she is the kind of girl i onced wished i could give my whole life to, but my young optimism witheld my vision. i've grown, now. i'm not stupid like i was, and could never see myself in love with someone like her now. she is the beautiful kind, but even the word beautiful doesn't do her justice ( Read more... )

i've decided it's best if i take a little retreat for awhile. it seems like everyone assumes i am out to steal souls eat them alive. that isn't really the case. i'm sure you all understand. i will find you, and watch you if i want to. if not, well, it isn't personal, i just don't feel like being a scapegoat, nor a motive, and i especially don't ( Read more... )

pain is NOT all i've ever felt ( Read more... )

ambitionless has become the way to describe much of livejournal, lately. well, while i shouldn't reflect this disposition, i do. i do not hurt, however, i just don't feel like doing anything ( Read more... )

"sin"

sprawled out
on your floor
eyes closed
breathing
melting
sinking
into a song
letting my body
comfortably
seep into the ground
i am
relaxed,
and i want to stay
this way forever.
volume increase
i begin to float
back to my original
position
on your carpeted floor.
we're both awake
side by side
my fingers crawl
to your hand
interlocksigh and ( Read more... )

my tired eyes graze the cracks planted deeply in the pavement. i wonder if those were from the fourteen year old girl who drove the car right through the front of the coffee shop. i imagine the tires slipping uncontrollably into the curb, the SUV lifting in the air for a split second, then the sudden blow of the car's hood shattering through the ( Read more... )

not writing at all is far more simple than trying to search the words for a description of what i'm going through.

i've always seen my past as something sort of subjective. for me, there are plenty of things i've just kind of dimmed from my memory; usually because what is hurtful for me is not hurtful for anyone else ( Read more... )