no voice,no sight,no chioce.blank thoughts and one giant hole of darkness.....

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i fee like so much shit today,ryan went out mushroom picking and i told him i had to clean our place b4 i would go out,he got mad...i dont even know why,last night he says he isnt intrested in anythng anymore...that and i bore him."wtf" i think to myself,i never knew i was suposed to be his entertainer,like his ass even cares anyway,i miss FL,i ( Read more... )

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well, there we are then,so much shit has been going on. i dont even know much anyone here anymore,either way,i can't stay here,this isnt my place,up north and shit. im impatient and angry,i hate it up here,its so hard to even do anything.i feel so empty.i barely eat up here,i dont even feel hungry half the time and i know if thwe rest of them ( Read more... )

i feel pretty empty right now.not like a jar empty but like water empty....i feel like an ocean that has no fish...yes.i had a drea last night,it was good i didnt even want to wake up.but i did...and now i miss that dream...i saw her again,and i was happy to have seen her.i had been thinking lately of my music and well i have drawn alot more lately ( Read more... )

well now i just had a weird ass dream,i wonder how new orleans,well its best to call it new atlantis anyway,how my family down there is doing,if they are even alive,some partof me wants to be down there,looting,and beating cops if they try to stop me,honestly i dont know why they were throwing ppl out of stores and shit like that.THEY'RE STARVING ( Read more... )

well i went down to fl for a bit o fun! i came back with more then i left with,i saw my mom and shit,i went to the beach with ryan,and i had so much fun!also i got a dog! and ryan had lots of fun,we played air hockey and i tottaly whooped ass....ok not the first few times i went aganinst him but i still made a comeback,i got some shit from the ( Read more... )