wow can you believe your whole life can be turned upside down in one night. man and after you worked so hard for it to get that way. oh well i guess its time for me to move on for good now. i think things are going to change for me. i am thinking about chilling on the drinking thing cause of my reasons. partying is going to be something im going to ( Read more... )

Man life is going really good right now. I hope it stays that way but you never know.

Man it's been so long. I wish things didn't have to change. If you don't already know, I'm back at my parents house and I have a new car. Yay! I guess. Man......thats about it. Well I'm thinking about another tat. maybe something like atmosphere cause they influenced my life so much. not sure yet. I can't tell you where I'm getting it. That is a ( Read more... )

Well lastnight was fun. All I was doing was asking for help and you saw it as something else. Why is it that I do something one way and you see it as I'm doing something else? And it's always something bad never good. I don't think this relationship will work anymore cause you can't trust me at all and I think you are selfish. All I have ever ( Read more... )

Well Matt is moving out Friday. It sucks so much but I guess I really didn't do anything to help keep him here. I'm getting drunk Friday so I can't remember anything. But I probably will. This sucks.

Man I wish Matt was here right now. I'm so fucking depressed. Things never fucking work out for me. Why is that?

Man I can't believe today. Not only did I lose any hope of me and Matt together again but I also lost my bestfriend. But now I have to give him his space. Man I can't believe how stupid I am. Everyone is saying to just move on but I don't think I can. You've made me who I am. You've done things for me when no one else would. I made a big mistake. ( Read more... )

You just have to be strong. I just have to be strong. I have this book its called I'm Fine, and its for the first 100 days of your break up. Which is cool. It helps me alot. Everytime I read it I feel a whole lot better. This weekend was great. I got drunk with Christina always fun, and I went to a show, and I went to Tims birthday party. Ofcourse ( Read more... )

its time that i keep my problems and life to myself. i dont think that this is helping anyone.

man i am now settled into me and matts new apartment. its way cooler then the other apartments. and its more spacious. if anyone wants to come see it you can. i think i might have a party but that means you have to come. cause otherwise its no party at all. and i saw star wars episode 3 or whatever and as shocking as that statement was i actually ( Read more... )