On the off chance that you swing by my page again....just know that it means something to me that we still check up on eachother....good or bad, its kind of interesting. I hope all is still going alright for you! :)

So here's a happy thought...I was talking to Billy about having a baby lol...Ya I asked him if he would give me a baby...we talked names lol I didn't have a girl name picked and so I was throwing names at him and this is where it gets cute....He said to one of them, no I have a friend with a baby that has that name already....oh my gosh...Lol maybe ( Read more... )

What the living heck...seriously. I am so upset over some other girl getting my spot on the date he planned and I declined. What the heck is wrong with me? Is it because he told me this girl likes him? Is it because she's Asian? Is it just because she got my spot? Fuck...I can't handle it and it's bugging the hell out of me. I just want to be able ( Read more... )

I need a vent moment and i can't do it on fb...
I need a baby. Seriously how many times can someone cry about wanting a baby so bad. It's kind of ridiculous. Either way, i know i have time. It is just so hard sometimes. I have always known i would be great at it...I've been told I'd be great at it. Ugh

I have an awesome boy in my life...he calls himself my boyfriend, says I'm his girlfriend...And i love it. It's not the best moral situation...but it's awesome and we make eachother feel good and happy and smile. I just wish we could be together in the right way. Maybe someday...

I have nothing exciting to update about. I just wanted to update. I did have an awesome moment on Sunday with Austin...something i never thought i would say. We almost had a conversation lol. Now if i could talk to captain America...

and i thought 23 weeks was bad! I just went through and reread some of my past posts...yeesh....how depressing does my life freaking sound? I vent through writing and dont seem to think about writing when I am happy so only the crap ends up on paper for me to reread and essentially relive when read. How stupid is that? Maybe for my own mental ( Read more... )

I was on facebook yesterday and i used the new 'people you may know' friend finder tool and was amazed at how many people are different ( Read more... )

wow 23 weeks? has it really been that long since I wrote something in here? I guess im kind of suprised that this is even still up what with facebook and mysace and such. I remember when caroline begged me to get live journal so much and eventually i just caved...then she made me get facebook...hmmm maybe caroline runs he social world ( Read more... )

holy fuck everybody, I think this is the worst day i have had in a long ass time. I am pretty sure it is all hormone induced so hopefully it will be gone in the next few days. I have had the worst week ever. I have just felt crappy and the other day Matt pissed me off so much I started crying and then I cried more because I was mad I started ( Read more... )