uh oh. went to "london". all went to shit.

think that maybe

i don't know where i am anymore.
this is neither bad nor good but it's strange after having the present and the future so seemingly put in place.
perhaps it's only my frantic nature; so aware of fragility and so unaccepting of the subtlely strong.
what if, in floating, i drown?

my house is a furnace. "hotter than satan's rectum", my father would say.

right. need to finish packing. i miss new york already.

time to go time to go.

nobody die while i'm gone. or move to jersey. such a waste.

much love.

(p.s. why were the spice girls so hot? because you had to get with their friends)

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funny thing is, in this one moment, i am really happy. i'm aware of the enormous fear that i feel about the future but an awareness is all it is, like the dull throbbing of a long since stubbed toe. perhaps this lull of contentment has something to do with my apartment not smelling like stale cigarettes or covered in the litter of countless of ( Read more... )

the inside of my face has exploded.

i am going to work now.

i will pay anyone with a loaded shotgun and a merciful/merciless heart to do what is necessary.

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