Shit is so miscombobulated that its crazy messed up.

i'm so annyoed that I missed DEMF. I wanted to see my JASMINE!! And watch kid get fucked up and make fools of themselves.

So it has been a year sense Mackie passes. it is so un-real to realize that. It makes me wonder how things would be if I were to leave. Would everybody just move on and not ( Read more... )

So things are going good. My mom got back from america a couple of days ago.
I cant help but laugh when Im around that women and she seem to make my days better. I know I'm gonig to miss her when I go back

I'm getting so use to tea time and its rediculous. I wake up ever morning to have coffee. OH no I'm growing up. Ha. But at the same time it is ( Read more... )

Things are rapidally changing ( Read more... )

I'm in LOVE with tea time!! thats one thing I like about this country!. LoLz

I'm just chillin. Im stoned and having a cig and some tea. What a great way to strat your morning out.
I have to go shopping for food. but I lost my key and would be locked outta my house if I left. There is a party going on later. And I want to go. But I dont want to have ( Read more... )

So im updating once again.

Not to much has been going on. I have been getting high ALOT and just chillin. I have meet some awsome ass people here. And they are people that you dont get in the states. It is literally oppisite. And Im kinda liking it. They dont make me feel the way I do in the states

When I come back I think Im doing a 180. Im ( Read more... )

So I haven't done this shit in a LONG ass time. So ya Im back in Europe. And living it up once again ( Read more... )

HAPPY MOTHER FUCKIN NEW BEER!!

I had an awsome ass new years. I hit up three parties. And the last one was definatly the best. I didnt return from the party till the next day round three. LoLz

Todays my dads birthday. So happy 49th birthday PoPz.

I gotta start the new year out straight and sweet.

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Where the fuck is everybody going!! What the fuck I'm serously alone.

Ian fucked himself for little fucks who dont even acknowledge he is in jail for them.
I miss him so much. And it pains me to think of him ever in a tight situation. I love him more then I can express.
and I havent ever expressed it to him. He needed me and what did I do.  Kept ( Read more... )

Memories evaporating from my train of thought
everybodies leaving
And all I have is me
I cant fight it anymore
I'm worthless
What have I honestly accomplished?
DEFINATLY not being me
I dont even know who I am
or what I stand for
Im NOT content with my cover-up
Im not okay with being alone anymore

I had a family
and I wish I knew the true meaning ( Read more... )