I now have a job. That I have been working in for four days.
It is hardcore work.
Im on my feet all day ( 9 hours )
I come home tired, but a gooooood tired.

last week I missed my appointment. But am going to make up for it tomorrow. Right after work

I havent had to bad of aniexty for the past two weeks. I think if I just keep focused an keep going. Ill ( Read more... )

So, Im due to leave in half an hour er so, to go an see my counsler.

I have a bit of aniexty but I cant let it get to me. I just have to face it.
My headphones are retarded, they dont work as good as they should.

I should get going.
I just have to keep in mind to breath.

Sometimes they build themselves, an sometimes they crumble.

My oh my, how this week has been intensely crazy.
With the panic attacks that I have been feeling for awhile, have been decreased with me seeing this new counsler, her name is Chris. An she is interesting, she had crystals an rocks all set up in her room.
Before I got there I had so much ( Read more... )

Here I am yet again.
Im sure it has been well over three years.

I can recall coming on here a few times an going all out, full form of emotions an I just got it out. It is actually prolly one of the things that got me through some of the things in high school.
But I didn't finish high school, not even a GED, dont get me wrong dont think that Im proud ( Read more... )

Whoa.

It has been quite awhile sense I have even thought of posting on this. Geez. I had almost forgot. How handy this thing actually came in sometimes. And even better now that I am permentally living in England.

I've got loads begining. And I'll tell you it gets hard at times. I will have to come back on here. And  post a message all about it. And ( Read more... )

Im just sitting here trying to concept what is going on. Im concertrating on how to react. It still hasnt seeped in. But for some reason I cant focus ( Read more... )

All I have to say is that I'm sorry I can't be perfect.

So things were getting quite hectic. And out of hands. But now things are falling together.I'm getting along with my brother and dad really good. I wish I could see my neice more often. Before I leave. Which looks like it might be after Halloween. I cant wait for halloween. LoLz.

So right now ( Read more... )

So I can't even begin to explain how things have begun & now they are ending.

I came to The United Kingdom. To run away from everyone. I couldn't bare to be in the wrong light of, spotlight. I felt so small. But i came here. And things began to soar. So far I still can't concept it. I have meet SO many amazing people. Who I will never forget. Even ( Read more... )

I dont want to feel hollow anymore...

It so hard to wake up anymore. All I wake up to is the same me. I have to admitte I have changed sense I came to England. And I have changed for the better. i didnt like the way I felt in the states. And the people here make me feel more alive. But its getting hard to breath again. Im slipping back into the ( Read more... )

brittney is coming tommorow. I'm excited. Ive got so much fun shit planned!

And karim is totally gonig to make it better!