I was gonna write this long winded poetic entry about it but I'd rather just say it straight and work on editing it into poems:
I love josh fortier.

I love Josh.
I am still little ol' scared me though, ESPECIALLY with the 'mones a-raging.

Poems still coming. Never at home, always with him. Hiking, bottling, kissing, smiling, laughing (hardest I have in awhile). I love him but he's made me scared to show affection. That's a negative. Guess I'll write about it. A poem for now.

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stud belt holes; hope you don't.

almost every shirt he owns
torn around the bottom
by stud belts,

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Go Greyhound ( Read more... )

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drove to boston, you took me to the ocean ( Read more... )

I am just plain ol' sad today. Maybe it has to do with the "this is why our relationship ended" conversation I had with Chris yesterday. Maybe it is because I waste my energy and my emotions and my life in general on things that are already over or never will happen. Hell, maybe it is hormones but I just seem to be getting more and more tired ( Read more... )

FUCK MY LIFE! Note: Being able to actively speak about our situation in a metaphor does NOT help in liking him any less. >_lauren isn't susan says ( Read more... )

My head and my heart are going to EXPLODE. Explode I tells ya ( Read more... )

I like him, a lot. Hung out yesterday and got drunk, went too far. I had sex with him and I shouldn't have. It lasted all of a minute until I rolled over and started crying ( Read more... )