LOVING the Olympics. Especially Alexander Artemev :) I hope we pull through in other events besides swimming so USA can have more medals, hopefully more golds ( Read more... )

Today Mom, Chase, and I drove to J&M's to eat lunch. I saw their new Kartell table and chairs and they're nice; maybe something I'd like (not the table though. It was nice but not my style). I looked through their wedding album and it was hard... J had gotten an artist who drew
Carl-like
pictures of milestones of their lives together and he had ( Read more... )

It is June 1st, the first day of my SHFS08! I have a whole summer to take in lazy days, inebriated nights, and reruns on TV! M was accepted into grad school so he'll be moving to Dallas in August, further putting haste on the necessity of summer enjoyment. I'm a little sad that he was accepted, because he won't be living in the same town as I for ( Read more... )

So I deleted M2's number from my phone. I did what I did with M: I wrote it down on a small piece of paper first and stuffed it underneath all my underwear in my top drawer before deleting it. That way, I'd always have it just in case, but I wouldn't be tempted to text him in the meantime.

I like that I'm getting over him. I asked M if it'd be ( Read more... )

Things are on the up and ups. M and I went to Mom's today to get Nana's program for her "Legacy" exhibit at the museum. I was stunned. She had taken most of her artwork and designer dresses from her houses and as a collection, showed them at the museum in McAllen. It was CRAZY awesome. They made a DVD about it, which I need to watch. I hope one day ( Read more... )

The past few days I've thought of plenty of little sentences to illustrate how I feel so I could jot them all down in my LiveJournal, but I have nothing now. M2 said he'd give it another go but of course, that didn't go so well. My friend Andy just broke up with his long-term girlfriend because she moved to Alaska (or rather, she broke up with him)
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I finished Book Six of The Dark Tower and started Book Seven even though I knew I was supposed to read Insomnia first. So M made me go with him to Barnes & Noble today to pick it up and it was hell to stop reading Seven, if ya kennit. But I did. It was just in time too, because I believe I have come to the part where little Oy dies (or I'll soon be ( Read more... )

I want to die. I want to die. I want to fucking die. Why did I have to realize these things about myself when it was too late/?!?? 

But there is really nothing, nothing we can do
Love must be forgotten. Life can always start up anew
The models will have children, we'll get a divorce
we'll find some more models, everything must run its course

We'll choke on our vomit and that will be the end
We were fated to pretend

yeah yeah yeah

M2. 2008-2008. The best piece of my life was taken away, probably by the same factors that contribute to everyone I love leaving me.
there are no factors, it just happens
I am going to fucking whine and bitch and cry about it, yes I am, regardless of how this reads six months from now. Or a year. Or ten. I don't care how this makes me sound, weak, ( Read more... )