i made a new journal, because this one has too many lame entries. but i want to keep them so i can read them when i'm older. Jennifer_Elise!

i've never been so bored in my life! i would love to point a gun at my head right now. or maybe hang out with somebody awesome.

but at the moment myspace is not fulfilling my desires because i have no new messages or comments to read ( Read more... )

i'm depressed.

things are perfect. they've never been better.
and this time... it's the truth.LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE ( Read more... )

i love sabrina for taking me with her to see STYX. it was pretty awesome even though we were surrounded by western, drunk hick-cowboys the whole time.

Lawrence Gowan is the hottest/coolest man ever even if he's old enough to be my dad or my dad's dad. and i'm not gross for thinking so. they put on a really good show. kaybye.

i am finally numb. thank god. it's the perfect time to be numb because if i wasn't i'd be crying to no end right now which pisses me off because i thought they didn't want to hurt me anymore. but i can still be happy and lately he's been cheering me up after i get let down because he's my best friend.

tonight sucked, but i am NOT going to let myself get upset. i saw it coming. I KNEW IT WOULD COME... but i still went for it because i give into temptation easily. i'm not going to start off the new year upset because that's gay. i'm really looking forward to growing up. i want to turn 16, then 18, then 21, and then i want to stop. i don't want to ( Read more... )

i feel extremely unwanted right now. i feel like i'm never going to find a boy that wants me and only me. the only time i feel wanted is when someone's around, but they're not around as much as i'd like them to be. when i'm alone i think too much. i realize things... things i don't want to realize. this really blows. i wish i was the center of ( Read more... )

i'm so mad at myself. i'm done being someone else.