Another late night or early morning and I am still awake. I know the physical reasons I am still awake. It is because I slept half the day away and did not really pull myself out of my lethargic half dead state until about 3 in the afternoon. I am getting to the point where I hate these late nights where I am all alone and there is no one left ( Read more... )

Typing is easier than writing out my thoughts and it lets me sit at my computer and listen to music a little easier. My room is cramped. I have too many things for this room. I need to focus on getting into a position where I can afford to move out. I love my parents but I am almost 26 and I hate even telling people that I live with my parents ( Read more... )

Another great tonight. It seems these are adding up lately and that is a good feeling. I went to Raleigh with my friends Mike and RJ to his high school friends party. There were a lot of cool people there and it was just fun to be able to get out Greensboro for the night and have some fun ( Read more... )

I took my final test for American Literature today and without being cocky I am fairly sure that I aced it. IO studied really hard and while I was taking the test I did not feel like there were any surprises and I was able to give well thought answers to all the questions. She might take off a point here or there but I am sure of an A I feel like ( Read more... )

Okay wow, It is the morning of my final test in American Literature. This could be my final time taking a test at GTCC. I certainly hope this is the case. My time at GTCC has been invaluable since it helped me become the person I am today but I am ready to move on. I am drowning in complacency. As long as I am there I do not know that I can ( Read more... )

Tonight went from being very questionable about how much fun I was going to have to being very fun. I mean it was not a perfect night. I have had those nights where everything goes my way and I leave the bar with this magical feeling like Greensboro is absolutely the place where I want to spend the rest of my life. Tonight was just a good night ( Read more... )

Ugh, I get so frustrated with my job sometimes I do not know what to do about it. I would quit my job but I have bills to pay and this is not the job market to leap before you look. The part that frustrates me most about my job is that sometimes it is the best job ever. Some days all the people whom ask me questions are really nice and it makes ( Read more... )

I took a step back and it made all the difference. Sick of going out constantly and forcing myself into situations that knew would not benefit my being, I decided to get away from it and focus on myself. I am glad that I made the decision. I have made this pledge before and stuck with it for a little while before going back to the prior routine ( Read more... )

You have to know when to stop or at least I have to know when to stop. I am not talking to anyone but myself. I tell myself the same things over and over again but I do not seem to learn anything. I heard that the repetition of the same action with the same results is the definition of insanity. Maybe I am insane and just do not know it or ( Read more... )

I am scared. I am not afraid of the boogie man or getting stabbed again. I am afraid of myself and the person that I can become. I am not afraid it will be a bad person. I am scared that I will be a very good person and I will accomplish a lot but I am scared of leaving these people I have come to know that mean so much to me ( Read more... )