So much wasted time. So much time I invested into something that I knew would never work, yet convinced myself that it would ( Read more... )

I should be doing my presentation for spanish class right now but I can't. My mind is numb and everything hurts.
It's not supposed to hurt this much.

I only wrote this so 3 years later when I look back, I can laugh at myself for being so silly. But for now, I can't stop crying.

I've been reading many of my past journal entries and all I can do is LOL at myself because I was so emotional and young and just probably upset because I thought Mitchell was it or maybe Alex. WTF WAS I THINKING ( Read more... )

i'm so tired of you

i'm really glad that i'm not 18 anymore ( Read more... )

i've come to realize that i really do dislike just about everyone i cross paths with, including you.

especially you.

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update journal.

i'm glad you won't be able to read this.

i really am.

i'm glad you're leaving soon because when you do, i can be me again.

i'm tired of you.

i'm tired of not getting what i want.

i'm tired of being some sort of side game for you. something you use at your disposal.

i'm glad it's over.

now i can be real fucking apathetic.

it feels good to be me.