i think at this stand point I can honestly say that I think that the only person i hate is myself.i cannot believe i did what i did to ChRiS.I wont say what it was over the internet.but i hate it!I like him a lot but he doesn't believe me....would everyone just get off my fucking back!!!!!!!!!!i want what i want!i wanna perform!i wanna show my ( Read more... )

everything seems so cold.but fuck that.I am worried about Xtina.I hope she'll be ok.:) she's one of my best friends.Kiwi and Chris broke uP!!!!Well they took a break for a week.but within 5-10 mins he called her back.I think saying "i cant do it".haha they'll never leave each other!I'm happy for both of them.they deserve each other...forever ( Read more... )

Why is it that eye'm always disapointed.eye fear to love.But love to fear.eye'm always mistaken.eye'm always replaced.eye'm always "just" there.eye'm always disembodied.eye'm always nothing... Eye know eye've said it before but after this past week or so...eye am completely convinced that eye am the disembodied one.Everyone eye dare dream of a ( Read more... )

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This is my first entry.I had to get a new die-ary since my bestfriend's mom decided to be a nosy bitch and fucking read it.Sorry to those for my language if it fucking offends you.ha like I show sympathly toward to anyone.Only those who I some what trust.Trust one one....

cryingshineyblood,
JeSs