i've never had any real passions in my life. then i discovered i was pregnant. suddenly i develoepd a passion for information. i learned about everything good i could do for my baby. cloth diapering (thanks steph), breastfeeding, delayed/no vaccinations, waiting to introduce solids, waiting to introduce main allergens ( Read more... )

ive been trying REALLY really hard to be more positive lately. it's not working yet. but im trying damnit! i don't mean to be so negative and i'm always bitching about "energy vampires" and i despise the thought of being one of those people. so...lately i've found myself thinking and saying "well, it's better then a swift kick in the ass ( Read more... )

i got my happy pills today. now i just need to make time to get the script filled :) effexor ftw ( Read more... )

happenings (bad, then good ( Read more... )

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME. some bitch in my boobie group just made a post in the yahoo group saying she finally had her baby "at home at 3:20 am." And reading the "at home" part MADE ME WANT TO GIVE BIRTH AGAIN? WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT IS WRONNNNNNNNNNNG WITH ME! OMGGG SOMEONE KNOCK SOME SENSE INTO ME ( Read more... )

we just went to see mellanie, our lactation consultant. she confirmed that there is in fact a problem with my pump. im kind of pissed. my supply went waaaaaaaaaaaaay down. there were so many factors. a bad pump just adds to the list. period, stress, not sticking to a strict pumping schedule, not pumping for as long as i was accustomed to and now a ( Read more... )

rose and i took pepe to the vet today. she has two tumors. one has attacthed itself to the lymphnode (sp) on her neck. She also appears to have congestive heart failure. the vet called her a "geriatric rat." Sad.But true. I love her lots and will do whatever I can to make her comfortable. In fact, I am going to go hold her right now ( Read more... )

rose got a lot of clothes for christmas. i'm really thankful for everyone who loves her so much :) today was her day out with her daddy. they went to livonia to see his friends/side of the family. it was nice to be baby free for a little while. though i missed the shit out of her...and him ( Read more... )

i hate breastfeeding. if i could just go to formula, life would be so much easier. Supply is getting better, but not sufficient yet ( Read more... )

i've been out of sorts since i've been in michigan. now that ray is here visiting as well, i feel like everything will be okay. i don't know what i would do without him.