LESS THAN A WEEK. Not ready at all. Yeah I knew I'd be nervous but I don't think I should be THIS nervous. I am TOO nervous. I am a walking panic attack. I can't eat, I can't sleep, I cry at the drop of a hat, I've even felt like cutting. I.AM.NOT.READY. Everyone tells me I won't feel ready even though I am. THEY ARE WRONG. It's one thing to not ( Read more... )

Okay, I reeeeeeeeeeally hate my dad. A couple of things...One, a week or two ago, he actually had the balls to suggest that the medications Joel and I were taking weren't working and maybe we should change. Um, not your call...Weren't working how? Because I'm home for a year? Because Joel's semester was less than perfect after a two-year break? Um ( Read more... )

I'm fucking tired. And honestly, it scares me. I mean, I've been getting steadily more tired for the past few months. Slowly, but steadily. No one believes me when I tell them how tired I am. How much worse can it get? Will I eventually not be able to get out of bed at all? Sometimes I wonder if I'm dying from whatever is causing it. If I'm just ( Read more... )

My father is such a supreme jerk. Here's what happened ( Read more... )

I am so tired of fucking everything up.

Not to be even more dramatic than I already am, but Rick and I are kinda sorta pretty much back together. He came down on Wednesday and left yesterday. His mother made him go home cuz of the snow, which was stupid because it stopped snowing and would have been safer if he'd gone home today. Anyway, we had an awesome time. It was almost perfect ( Read more... )

Yeah. God, I don't want to write this because I don't want to talk about it because I have enough people breathing down my neck about it.

Here it is in a nutshell:

I'm taking a year off of college.

I will be going back ( Read more... )

School! Again! Already! Argh! Nervous... Excited... But mostly nervous...

You know what I can't stand? Wet hair.
But you know what I also can't stand? Blow-drying my hair.

It's a no-win...

Rick and I are on a break. Which hurts like hell. But it was the right thing for us to do. Just so you all know...

It's been commented that I haven't recently updated my journal, so here it is. I'm taking a break from reading Plato's Apology so I figured I'd update. Yeah. Hi ( Read more... )