I despise guns/razorblades/smoking/drugs/alcohol. So yes maybe I even despise you.
This is my last entry.
If I add you on my new journal then I add you and if not well then goodbye. Or feel free to add me and I just may add you.
My new journal name is loveslasthope

This journal will be going into the trash soon.
If I still feel any need to attempt anything with you I will be adding you on my new journal that I will be making.
If you add me back that will be great.
If not then I guess we are not really attempting anything.

ive sat up thinking all night long and decided that i want to start anew with everyone and everything.
cleanse my soul and forgive me for thinking any bad thoughts even if at the time they were backedup by good reasons ^_-

And now I am loves last hope
Oh dear god if only I had better prepared myself for this

*Theres a fight going on. Where? pounds chest....In here In here!!*
*Anger jolts like heartburn in the throat*

Whilst talking to Haley on the phone tonight I cried..who knows if she did..I would like to think that she did and yet I would also like to think that she didnt. I miss that girl soo much..I never knew that I would like her quite so much but she is really freaking amazingly awesome!! She is my sister as far as I am concerned. Sister and friend... ( Read more... )

Dear man up above
Who will be my savior tonight
And when will they come
For I need someone
And I need them right now
Haley and I miss each other
And I think I forgot to take my meds today

Take a deep breath of the icy cold air ( Read more... )

Holy water can not help you now
Your mysterious eyes will not help you
*PJ Harvey*

That is perfect.

After all of that it was time for some changes. I cut my hair late at night...Had Erica pierce my ears again after we closed...Going to stretch my first holes...Colored a bit of my hair late in the night...Changed my horseshoe back to my labret stud...

*All you need is love*-John Lennon
My baby sent that to me..cuz we both know its true.