i'm not your wall of self destruction or your mound of ill repute

I'm unhappy.
I'm lonely.
I'm just.. me.

and I'm not content with being me all over again.

-J

nothing.. nothing at all.. blank and faded am i

I havent written in quite some time.
When my usual updates were always either each day or every other.
Lately I've been trying to come to terms with some feelings I had for someone.

For once in my life I fell for someone who KNOWINGLY told me not to.
He knew it would be nothing, and I, I thought it ( Read more... )

a jigsaw puzzle, incomplete with missing pieces, i am the epitome of.

apparently i'm just like air
invisible and taken for granted
but yet in high demand

so fuck you
i want to see you breathe without me
©[bella 2k4]

i am done being played a fool.
by your friendship, by your words, by your promises, and most of all..
by your liesi thought ( Read more... )

you're the disease i hope they never cure me ofi think its time i start getting away from the things that are hurting me ( Read more... )

i want to cut away the very part of me that you infest

So..
Where to start?
I went back to work Monday after a 2 month medical leave, it was a mandatory leave and I hated it.
Work is already killing me and I've only been back for 3 days. HEHI'm stuck in a 7 week training course because we're adopting a new system for the financial merger ( Read more... )

[Change]Blind Melon ( Read more... )

i dont know how to say everything i want to say, or how to phrase it ( Read more... )

From January 25th, 2005 Forum Post.:so those who know me, know i've been having relationship issues ( Read more... )

all i am is what you are and what you are is dead to me.

you make my insides itch
and now my skin is tainted
forever connected
bound & restrainted
-j

into the void, we all fall.. it's just a matter of seeing who can spring back, after all is said and done.

He's made me SMILE so much lately ( Read more... )